[ ushered inside, Ludger takes in the infirmary. he'd been here briefly at the beginning of the week, but he'd never stayed long enough to enjoy its therapeutic effects before. ]
There's the monster species as a whole, but they're wild creatures we just share the world with. I don't think too much about them. But other "monsters"...
[ ......... ]
Well, I think you're just talking about discrimination right now? There aren't that many actual monsters out there.
[ you know? there's plenty that foxglove could say here and it doesn't because when ludger says how he doesn't think that there are a lot monsters (not the creature) out there, it brings a sort of...joy to it.
not that ludger would tell because gestures in puppet. but foxglove's voice will sound gentler, especially as it hops up onto the counter to grab some burn ointments. ]
What if that letter wasn't talking about a literal monster then?
If I was given that letter then I know that I'd save someone who would be labeled as a monster. [ more to itself than to ludger: ] Everyone deserves to be happy.
[ the thing about being raised hidden from your own brother's workplace, is that you tend to be a bit... sheltered as a result. but he wasn't completely unaware of the darker side of Elympios - he just never had to think about it. at least, until he finally stepped out of Julius's long, protective shadow. then, he had no choice but to confront it, to stare it in the face. ]
... Yeah. I'd save them too. But- It's not for any reason like I think they should be happy. That's up to them.
[ some people just won't be happy no matter what. they can't let themselves find it, in the big or small things. ]
I guess, I just want to be forgiven for the things I've done, one day. And if I want that, then how can I not offer it to others?
[ even those who'd rather spit on him, who'd choose to die before accepting such pity. ]
[ foxglove will hear every word that ludger has to share and try to understand what isn't being said. unfortunately, it can only go off of context clues when trying to form the bigger image. nevertheless— ]
I also want to be forgiven for what I've done. I've caused a lot of people a great deal of harm.
[ pat pat. have a plaster to cover the burn so it doesn't get nasty. ...at least, until he has to wash himself. ]
Maybe saving them can also save me. [ it chuckles to itself. self-deprecating. ] A bit selfish, isn't it?
[ he'll accept the plaster and apply it carefully to a spot on his wrist. owie... ]
The thing that can let us be so selfless is also what lets us be so selfish. There's nothing wrong with it - we just shouldn't let it go out of control.
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[ ushered inside, Ludger takes in the infirmary. he'd been here briefly at the beginning of the week, but he'd never stayed long enough to enjoy its therapeutic effects before. ]
There's the monster species as a whole, but they're wild creatures we just share the world with. I don't think too much about them. But other "monsters"...
[ ......... ]
Well, I think you're just talking about discrimination right now? There aren't that many actual monsters out there.
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not that ludger would tell because gestures in puppet. but foxglove's voice will sound gentler, especially as it hops up onto the counter to grab some burn ointments. ]
What if that letter wasn't talking about a literal monster then?
If I was given that letter then I know that I'd save someone who would be labeled as a monster. [ more to itself than to ludger: ] Everyone deserves to be happy.
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... Yeah. I'd save them too. But- It's not for any reason like I think they should be happy. That's up to them.
[ some people just won't be happy no matter what. they can't let themselves find it, in the big or small things. ]
I guess, I just want to be forgiven for the things I've done, one day. And if I want that, then how can I not offer it to others?
[ even those who'd rather spit on him, who'd choose to die before accepting such pity. ]
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I also want to be forgiven for what I've done. I've caused a lot of people a great deal of harm.
[ pat pat. have a plaster to cover the burn so it doesn't get nasty. ...at least, until he has to wash himself. ]
Maybe saving them can also save me. [ it chuckles to itself. self-deprecating. ] A bit selfish, isn't it?
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[ he'll accept the plaster and apply it carefully to a spot on his wrist. owie... ]
The thing that can let us be so selfless is also what lets us be so selfish. There's nothing wrong with it - we just shouldn't let it go out of control.
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I don't know what will happen if you decided to "save a monster" or what that'll do to you but—be careful.
[ a softer pat pat. ]
You seem to be like a good person, Ludger, and I don't want anything bad to happen to you.
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Thank you, Foxglove. I'm just trying my best - I hope it'll be enough.
[ and gently, Ludger will place his own hand on top of Foxglove's puppet head and pat it once, twice, thrice. ]
I'll let you know if anything happens. Who knows - maybe this is just an attempt to freak us out.
[ he doubts it. but who knows? ]
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[ this is why you're in debt ludger. ]
Next time you get hurt, don't hesitate to find me here in my clinic. You'll have a better chance finding me here than out there.
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Where did your clinic come from, by the way? Was it always here and we just couldn't see it or...?
[ perception fuckery vs ??????? both are terrifying! ]
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[ sweats. ]
...you guys couldn't just go to it until now.
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[ by a certain group of puppets? ]
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It seems to be the case.
You're able to visit my clinic now, which is important in case any of you get hurt.
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Yeah - I didn't poke around the clothing store too much, but I didn't see any actual first aid kits in there.
[ and the clown box,,,,,,,,, ]
... If this clinic was always here, and you could see it, does that mean there's more buildings we can't see that you can?
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Why would you think to find a first aid kit in a clothing store?
[ HONEST QUESTION BEING ASKED HERE..... ]
Yes, that's correct. My lab is another building here that you all can't see and certainly not access.
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[ like a haunted Marshalls. Merxhalls in Trigleph, maybe.
anyways congrats, Foxglove, you've spoken it into being. ]
Are there a lot of places we can't see? [ ... ] There isn't a mass grave, is there...?
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I suppose it could.
[ because there's. some logic there. somewhere... ]
G, grave? I should hope that there isn't a grave anywhere here! [ panicked. ] ...b, but yes, there are a few other places that you all can't see.
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[ HM. don't like that. please let them all have been cremated. ]
Well, I guess we've got something to look forward to next time this place changes.
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[ THE PANIC IS REAL NOW THOUGH. ]
I sincerely hope that we don't end up finding any gravesites...
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but now Ludger feels bad for bringing the issue up! ]
Hey, it's okay - if it shows up, I'll check it out so you don't have to go anywhere near it, okay?