[ time sure is fucking fake, but fran won't say anything for a moment before softly offering some words to ludger that he's sure that he has probably already heard. ]
You know what they say about regrets—even if that's easier said than done.
[ FRAN IS AN ADULT!!! he's mentally stable aside from being filled with more guilty than any normal human should be filled with. ]
I see. Well, I won't force it, however, if there's a way to work out whatever it might have been at the heart of it now that you have this chance, then you should take it.
[ it still feels a little pointless to dump his feelings over ( redacted ) on Julius when Julius is just going to escape into the void/death about it all! ]
... What kinds of things would you talk about? If someone like that was here with you.
[ can't say he didn't expect the question to be turned back on him, but to have it done so quickly as it has, fran will need a moment to chew it over. also because he's a man full of regrets. ]
I guess, I'd ask them if they...were fine with the outcome of things.
[ IT'S SO FUNNY CONSIDERING WHAT HAPPENS LATER THIS WEEK...and will keep on happening, actually. ]
Unfortunately I think if I said anything it would be hypocritical of me, but even still, it is easier when we're working together then keeping to ourselves.
[ it's still the beginning of w4, that possibility does not exist in his mind :) ]
... Thanks.
[ he won't talk about certain things but... there are some stones he'd like to unearth a little. just to reassure himself that yes, he's the one making mountains out of molehills. ]
...... Sometimes. I'm angry at Julius. And my friends back home.
and you know, it's not really that huge of a deal to get angry with your brother or your friends but this feels a bit more specific than something more generalized. ]
...angry with your friends back home? What are the things that they are doing that cause you to get angry?
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Not possible?
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He's dead. I'm a little further ahead on my world's timeline than Julius is.
[ does Fran have the Siffrin provided context... ]
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Oh, I see. [ ... ] Then it must have been awkward seeing him again when we all arrived here.
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A bit, yeah. [ ... ] There's a lot I don't know how to say to him. So it's frustrating, sometimes.
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You know what they say about regrets—even if that's easier said than done.
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[ like, come on, he's already dead, does he have to make him feel bad too??? ]
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Does it always have to be a regret? Can't it resolved in some fashion?
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[ and he doesn't want to All of dump this on Fran too. ]
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I see. Well, I won't force it, however, if there's a way to work out whatever it might have been at the heart of it now that you have this chance, then you should take it.
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... Maybe.
[ it still feels a little pointless to dump his feelings over ( redacted ) on Julius when Julius is just going to escape into the void/death about it all! ]
... What kinds of things would you talk about? If someone like that was here with you.
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Me?
[ can't say he didn't expect the question to be turned back on him, but to have it done so quickly as it has, fran will need a moment to chew it over. also because he's a man full of regrets. ]
I guess, I'd ask them if they...were fine with the outcome of things.
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... Do you think they were?
[ because that answer is easy on Ludger's side - Julius was fine with it. and that's a chunk of the problem. ]
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They had faith in me until the very end.
[ and now they can both share having the same problem, i guess. ]
...which doesn't make of it easier on me, truthfully.
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... It's heavy sometimes, isn't it.
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It certainly is, and it doesn't get any lighter no matter how much time passes.
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You're not alone, okay? So don't try to carry it by yourself the whole time.
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maybe it's kind of nice to have someone who isn't as talented at lying as fran is. ]
I could say the same for you.
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[ there really isn't much point at bringing it up? ]
I gotta keep it together. Everyone's under a lot of stress - I don't want to add to it.
[ this is very funny considering what happens later this week ]
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Unfortunately I think if I said anything it would be hypocritical of me, but even still, it is easier when we're working together then keeping to ourselves.
It's okay to depend on others.
[ says fran fully aware. ]
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I do depend on you, and everyone.
[ he says, like a repressed depresso that doesn't even know he's lying. ]
I just don't want to be a burden. That's all.
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I think we're all afraid of not wanting to come off as a burden, but I'm sure that the people who care wouldn't think yourself as one.
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[ and that's enough for him to bury it, until he dies as scheduled. ]
It's okay, Fran. We're all busy with everything happening - it's not a big deal.
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Isn't it a big deal? It's times like these that matter the most.
I certainly don't consider you a burden.
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... Thanks.
[ he won't talk about certain things but... there are some stones he'd like to unearth a little. just to reassure himself that yes, he's the one making mountains out of molehills. ]
...... Sometimes. I'm angry at Julius. And my friends back home.
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and you know, it's not really that huge of a deal to get angry with your brother or your friends but this feels a bit more specific than something more generalized. ]
...angry with your friends back home? What are the things that they are doing that cause you to get angry?
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